Blog
New Post Every Tuesday & Friday!
-
Rainbow in the Toilet Bowl
Let’s play another round of honesty hour, but this time about some things that I actually don’t want to be honest about. There’s only one rule: no judging. Okay, so here we go. I threw up tonight — not because I had to or felt sick, but because I went to a Chinese buffet alone…
-
The Annual Reminder
I got a text from my mom on my birthday. The one text I get a year for getting another year older. A pointless message. “Happy Birthday!” as if it should mean something. You don’t know me anymore. It’s been a decade since we’ve had any sort of relationship, so I wish you would just…
-
Learning to Walk Away
I hate being the one who walks away from people. I like it when the other person does the walking away—it’s easier for me to rationalize never going back. You don’t have to reject me twice; once is enough, and you’ll never hear from me again. But when I have to be the one to…
-
Tell Me I’m Great.
I mean it… say it right now. Tell me I’m great and mean it. Tell me that you notice all the little amazing things I can’t see. Tell me you see me—and see me for all of me, my flaws and all—and choose to stay with me anyway. Tell me that everything I do is enough.…
-
Joy Runs Don’t Last Forever
Today I was at the gym, and I had the sudden urge to just start bawling. Maybe I should start with the fact that I decided to do my 6.5-mile long run before hitting legs at the gym. That was the worst mistake of my life—but I’ll probably do it again at some point, convincing myself it…
-
Learning How to Be Quiet
I have nothing written for today, and usually I have at least one piece of writing from my journal stashed away so that I always have something to post — but today I’m empty. My thoughts are slightly empty as well. Life has been so… very slow compared to how I typically live. I’m not…