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Ramen, Procrastination, and Recovery Time
I just finished a bowl of ramen, and I’ve been procrastinating writing a post for today. Honestly, I have nothing to say. Plus, my nails are annoyingly long since I made them long for graduation, which makes it difficult to type without hitting multiple keys at once. I’m going to have to redo them either…
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Dairy Entry #whoknows, But Let’s Call It: “I Said My Name and He Hung Up”
7/16/2024 I talked to my grandma today for the first time in close to two years. It’s her birthday, and she was so happy to hear from me—happy to the point that it made me sad. I am not a girl who cries often, but if there is one thing in this world that can…
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For the Little Girl Who Wanted to Die
I used to do coke in the middle of the night with my ex-boyfriend. I used to steal at every department store I walked into. I used to drink a case of beer alone every night. I used to pop pain pills for fun. I used to sleep with a different guy every night. I…
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Do You Think You Are Capable Of Love?
Umm, I’m not too sure, to be honest, but if there is something I would not like to admit, it is the fact that I don’t think I ever truly felt love for my dog, Daisy, until these past two years—not fully anyway. I know I was her mother, and I did everything I was…
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The Habit of Hating Myself
Sometimes I wonder what it is about hating yourself that feels almost addictive. At some point in my life, I hated almost everything about myself, and it’s so easy to slip back into that. It’s easy to start thinking about all the things I hate about myself… like it’s just the default way my brain…
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What Made You Think I Deserved It?
Sometimes I still wonder what I did to deserve being estranged from my family. I truly wish my mom, brother, and especially my little sister could write down all the reasons why I was never allowed back into the family. Masochistic, isn’t it? Me wanting them to tell me exactly what was wrong with me…