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  • He Taught Me How to Cry

    I want to talk about something, but I’m not really sure how to. I met a man two years ago when I moved to Maine, and he taught me how to cry again. For a long time, I only cried maybe once a year, if that. I remember us sitting in my living room on…

  • The 1% Chance

    There are parts of myself I still hate. No matter how far I come in life or how much I think I’ve grown, there are still parts of the little girl inside me that I hate with a passion. I hate the part of myself that will drop everything for a 1% chance at winning.…

  • Cheeky Little Crushes & Terminal Burnout

    For the past two months, I feel like I’ve been in severe burnout—like terminal burnout, where I couldn’t see it ever ending. I’ve never experienced burnout like this in my entire life, and it was awful. Yesterday was the first day I was able to be productive and convince myself I didn’t need to scroll…

  • Will It Ever Be Enough?

    Can I say something without you thinking I want to die? Sometimes the thought, “I can’t wait to die,” crosses my mind. Not because I want to die now, or because I hate my life, or because I’m miserable. It’s more that I feel like nothing is ever going to be enough. At least when I die,…

  • Why Am I More Tired When I Finally Rest?

    Today I woke up and realized that my under-eyes are starting to turn purple and sink in a little. The weird part? I’ve been sleeping more than I have in the last three years, yet somehow I look more tired. I feel more tired, and my body hurts more. I swear this happens every time.…

  • Sometimes Rest Is Discipline

    I took a total of four days off from running and ran for the first time yesterday on a treadmill. I hate treadmills, but I really just needed to avoid running in 85-degree weather and dying of heat stroke. Plus, I can control my speed on a treadmill, and it’s flat 100% of the time.…