Tag: cry
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I Truly Am a Big Baby After All
One time when I was a kid, my little sister, my mom, and I were cuddled up in her king-size bed under her really big red blanket, watching some Japanese movie. I barely remember the plot, let alone the name. My mom was wearing her very worn green cardigan that I always envied (I always Read more
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Joy Runs Don’t Last Forever
Today I was at the gym, and I had the sudden urge to just start bawling. Maybe I should start with the fact that I decided to do my 6.5-mile long run before hitting legs at the gym. That was the worst mistake of my life—but I’ll probably do it again at some point, convincing myself it Read more
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The Tree, the Lights, and the Tears
After almost a decade of spending the holidays without family, I can finally say with certainty that it does get easier…not just easier, but actually enjoyable. This is the first Thanksgiving I’ve spent alone and didn’t feel sad. I even drank, and it didn’t turn me into a downer…which I thought was odd. I did Read more
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A Stupid Fucking Boy
I cried myself to sleep for the first time in years the other day… all because of a boy. A stupid fucking boy. Well, maybe the stupid one is actually me—for letting him have any control over my emotions. Ahh, but putting the blame on him is so much easier, because how could it possibly Read more
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Miss Heartless
“Yuka, not everyone can be as heartless as you.”So I’m heartless — but you didn’t watch me burst into tears five times today. I hold a lot of guilt…guilt for running away, 20 hours away from home, and leaving my dad behind. I come home for the first time in about a year, and it Read more
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When You’re No Longer Her Baby
I’ve started to stop thinking about my mom. After a long day yesterday, I realized I had spent the whole day without thinking about her—something that has practically never happened before. What happens if one day comes and I never think about her again? What if I die, and she’s the last thing on my Read more