Category: My Fears
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The 5% That No One Talks About
Did you know that only 5% of people who lose the majority of their body weight actually keep it off for the rest of their lives, or even for a large number of years? I found this out recently, and it honestly shocked me. I feel like everywhere on social media, all I see are Read more
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I Keep Saying It’ll End—It Doesn’t
I’m struggling, but I don’t want to admit it, so I won’t. I’ll keep pushing day after day like nothing is wrong. I’ll tell you my problems and then make some lighthearted joke about how it’s “just for now.” But it’s been “just for now” for the last ten years. When does it end? I Read more
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A Lizard and Its Heat Lamp
I’ve been working nights since I was 18 years old. It’s been 8 years of consistently working night shifts, either with the elderly or in a hospital. My current client tells me every time I walk in how grateful she is to have me there and how much she hates being alone at night. In Read more
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Joy Runs Don’t Last Forever
Today I was at the gym, and I had the sudden urge to just start bawling. Maybe I should start with the fact that I decided to do my 6.5-mile long run before hitting legs at the gym. That was the worst mistake of my life—but I’ll probably do it again at some point, convincing myself it Read more
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I Paid In Full
The other day, I made a post showcasing my weight loss on Instagram with two images — one of me at my heavier weight and the other of me that day. I captioned the image of my heavier self with “You’ll pay a price,” and the other with “I paid in full.” I got so Read more
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Three Months of Waiting
I’ve officially decided to wait. I was in the shower earlier today when it crossed my mind that it would be unfair for me to see other people while I have feelings for someone else. As much as I like to think keeping my options open would be better, it wouldn’t be smart. I don’t Read more