Category: My Fears
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Joy Runs Don’t Last Forever
Today I was at the gym, and I had the sudden urge to just start bawling. Maybe I should start with the fact that I decided to do my 6.5-mile long run before hitting legs at the gym. That was the worst mistake of my life—but I’ll probably do it again at some point, convincing myself it… Read more
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I Paid In Full
The other day, I made a post showcasing my weight loss on Instagram with two images — one of me at my heavier weight and the other of me that day. I captioned the image of my heavier self with “You’ll pay a price,” and the other with “I paid in full.” I got so… Read more
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Three Months of Waiting
I’ve officially decided to wait. I was in the shower earlier today when it crossed my mind that it would be unfair for me to see other people while I have feelings for someone else. As much as I like to think keeping my options open would be better, it wouldn’t be smart. I don’t… Read more
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Holding His Thumb
I woke up holding his thumb. My back was turned to him, and that tiny grip was the only point of contact between us. God, I used to think there was no one on this Earth that I could ever comfortably sleep next to unless we slept on opposing sides of the bed, but here… Read more
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The View That Held Me Still
Today I sat looking at a beautiful view. The bench was above a garden full of wildflowers, and off in the distance you could see the ocean, and even further you could see a hill with a farmhouse on the top. The view was almost perfect…just missing my dog running around with a couple of… Read more
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Not Great at Running (But Great at Running Away)
I’m not sure what to write about today, but I’m sure my train of thought will take over soon. I’m five weeks into my half marathon training, and honestly, I don’t know who I thought I was when I signed up for this race. This shit is hard…harder than I expected. I’ve run one before,… Read more