Tag: mental health
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i missed throwing up
I threw up today—not because I’m sick, or for any other reason than the fact that I forced myself to. I binged two packs of sushi, chicken tenders, sticky rice, and an avocado… oh, and a slice of cheesecake for dessert. All washed down with a crisp Diet Coke. I walked to the bathroom and… Read more
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Quieting the World: 24-Hours Without a Phone
Today, I woke up and dreaded existence the moment I picked up my phone. So, I turned it off. It’s been off since 7 a.m., and I refuse to turn it back on until at least 9 a.m. tomorrow when this post is made. I even went as far as logging out of my iMessages… Read more
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Healing Through Tears: Finding Freedom in Softness
11/28/2024: I’ve cried more this year than I have in my entire life. I cried half-way to the top of Cadillac Mountain today while staring off into the ocean, while hearing “I’m not that girl” from the Wicked movie, and finally on my drive home in a snow storm. I was never much of a… Read more
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Even Though I Don’t Know Where I’m Going…
I ran 3 miles today and it absolutely sucked, but I did it anyway. Because sometimes life sucks, you want to give up, and think nothing will get better, but that doesn’t mean I can’t do hard things. These past few months have sucked as a whole, and I stopped exercising and caring for myself.… Read more
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How to Start Over, Again and Again
8/20/2024: What if I told you I wasn’t doing well? What if I told you that I’ve thrown up 4 times this week? What if I told you that I don’t see myself getting better? What if I told you that I’m terrified for my well-being? I sat on my patio tonight smoking a cigarette… Read more
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between the lines
anything can be a poem roses are red, remember? just like these lines & violets are blue. so simple yet oddly complex are you looking for a deeper meaning? did you read between the lines? analyzing every single word why choose that verbiage? what’s it mean to you? i’ll overthink my life until it’s true. … Read more