Category: My Self-Awareness
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The Art of Overfilling a Day
It is officially a new month—April—so we are almost a quarter of the way into the year, and why does it feel like it’s flown by? Man, sometimes time really does just slip away. I have no idea what really happened in March other than that I existed and probably ran a bunch. Honestly, with Read more
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Rainbow in the Toilet Bowl
Let’s play another round of honesty hour, but this time about some things that I actually don’t want to be honest about. There’s only one rule: no judging. Okay, so here we go. I threw up tonight — not because I had to or felt sick, but because I went to a Chinese buffet alone Read more
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I Refuse to Be Half-Known
I’ll say it once and only once: I wish so badly I wasn’t single. I’ve been single for almost four years now, and for the most part, I really do wish I were in a relationship. I wish I had someone to come home to, or someone rooting for me. I feel like I could have been Read more
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What He Placed in My Hands
I closed my eyes and he placed two rocks in my hands…two heart-shaped rocks he’d found outside. The little girl in me almost died from joy; the twenty-five-year-old I am now told myself not to feel anything at all. I looked back up at him and smiled, playfully mocking him for being corny. Then he Read more
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How Far Can You Run From Yourself?
“What are you running from?” The world.So far from the world that I possibly can.Run so fast the world can’t keep up.Run so far from every decision I’ve ever made that they cease to exist.Run until I can’t feel the wind anymore.Run until I float, & feet no longer touch the ground. Life feels easier Read more
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My Back Hurts and I’m Not Even 30
It’s come… it’s finally come—the time that I can no longer drink coffee past noon or I will inevitably stay up all night, tossing and turning in bed, wondering why I can’t fall asleep. When did I get this old? My body aging feels cruel. Everything hurts all the time. I remember a friend from Read more