Category: My Self-Awareness
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Beautiful & Unbearable
I don’t know how to describe the feeling of crossing the state line back into Maine after being gone for three weeks. It was like my stomach dropped into a pit, and every part of me was begging to turn around. I find it so irritating how strongly I dislike this state. I hate this Read more
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i missed throwing up
I threw up today—not because I’m sick, or for any other reason than the fact that I forced myself to. I binged two packs of sushi, chicken tenders, sticky rice, and an avocado… oh, and a slice of cheesecake for dessert. All washed down with a crisp Diet Coke. I walked to the bathroom and Read more
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Shame, Sleep, & a Side of Hummus
Surprisingly, I’m doing well under the circumstances I’ve been put under. I really thought that after the affair situation came out, I would be spiraling—but I’m actually doing extremely well. And before anyone asks… yes, I was the other woman, and yes yes, shame on me. But also, shame on the man. That’s beside the point. Let’s Read more
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The Power of Redefining Greatness
When I was applying for college during my undergrad, there was a section of the application that asked for a personal statement/essay. The other day, I stumbled upon the file that I had hidden for years and read it for the first time in seven years. I wrote about how my biggest fear was time—the Read more
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A 24-Hour Victory
I didn’t think about my mom yesterday. Today, as I was reading a book in my office, that thought crossed my mind. I hadn’t thought about my mom for a whole twenty-four hours. I never imagined a day would come when I wouldn’t think about her. The book I’m reading is called Forgiving What You Can’t Read more
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The Life You Didn’t Plan, But Needed
Why is it that every time my period is even slightly late, I like to think I’m pregnant? It could be one day, and immediately my mind believes that I’m carrying a child. It’s like I jump to worst-case scenarios every time. One of the reasons I hate being a woman. Don’t get me wrong—I Read more