Category: My Mind
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Trying to Pay Attention (But Failing)
It’s 8 a.m., and I’m sitting in a stats class trying my best not to pay attention. For some reason, when I know an exam is happening the same week that we have lecture, my brain automatically believes that everything said in lecture is null—not necessary for my brain to consume any new information. I Read more
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So Yeah, That’s Why I Cried Today
I cried at the gym today doing my last set of clamshells—an exercise I’m only doing to try to get better at running. I’m not sure if my knees will truly make it though, but that’s not the reason I cried. I cried because in a split second I realized my eating habits, or more Read more
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The Annual Reminder
I got a text from my mom on my birthday. The one text I get a year for getting another year older. A pointless message. “Happy Birthday!” as if it should mean something. You don’t know me anymore. It’s been a decade since we’ve had any sort of relationship, so I wish you would just Read more
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Tell Me I’m Great.
I mean it… say it right now. Tell me I’m great and mean it. Tell me that you notice all the little amazing things I can’t see. Tell me you see me—and see me for all of me, my flaws and all—and choose to stay with me anyway. Tell me that everything I do is enough. Read more
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Why Desire Feels Like a Promise
There is this idea—it goes something along the lines of: if you feel strongly about something you want, something you yearn for, it’s already yours. Because if it wasn’t meant for you, you wouldn’t crave it so deeply. I heard it recently somewhere on the internet while I was aimlessly scrolling, and the idea has Read more
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What’s the Goal?
I think one of the best ways to get to know someone is by asking one simple question: What’s the goal? I ask this question to almost everyone I meet for the first time, and the most common answer—almost always—is money.“I just want to get rich.” So then I ask why. What does money actually do for Read more