Category: My Mind
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The Tree, the Lights, and the Tears
After almost a decade of spending the holidays without family, I can finally say with certainty that it does get easier…not just easier, but actually enjoyable. This is the first Thanksgiving I’ve spent alone and didn’t feel sad. I even drank, and it didn’t turn me into a downer…which I thought was odd. I did Read more
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The Season I Slow Down
Hey journal, it’s been a while since I’ve written in you, and honestly I don’t have anything revolutionary to say. But what I can tell you is this: the days are short, and it gets dark faster than I can blink. It’s cold…already very cold…and I’ve started wearing thermals on my walks. I promised myself at the Read more
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One More Hour
I remember the last hour I spent with him. I had just finished buzzing his head; we were covered in his hair and both of us were in desperate need of a shower. I went first. As I walked downstairs, I could hear him on the phone. I started packing up my bag, ready to Read more
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The Mirror He Forced Me to Face
There was once a time in my life, where a boy brought out the worst in me…and I mean the absolute worst version of myself I ever could be. He brought out every ounce of anger I thought I had gotten over. That wasn’t true. He tested every part of my identity and what I Read more
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Becoming Someone You’ll Never Meet
The other day, I was thinking about my birthday coming up next year and what trip I wanted to take. I was thinking of taking a solo trip to New York. I’ve never been but have always wanted to visit…see the Statue of Liberty, go to the Natural History Museum, see a show on Broadway Read more
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Finding My Heart Again
I had a great day today. God…today was the epitome of great. I ran 13.1 miles at a pace far faster than I expected. This past week had been the biggest mental struggle of my life… my brain just wouldn’t stop, and I completely stopped believing in myself and who I was. I got lost Read more