Category: My Mind
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Finding My Heart Again
I had a great day today. God…today was the epitome of great. I ran 13.1 miles at a pace far faster than I expected. This past week had been the biggest mental struggle of my life… my brain just wouldn’t stop, and I completely stopped believing in myself and who I was. I got lost Read more
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Do you believe in God?
I don’t know, but yes. I watched someone very close to me die…I mean, I watched him take his last breath. That was the day I started to believe in God, again. I hated the idea that I had no idea where he went or whether he was safe. The idea of it terrified me. Read more
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Drowning Above Water
I can’t sleep. I don’t want to eat. I’m tired. I can’t feel anything. A cigarette, a drink, a late-night McDonald’s binge—the mountains, the stars, the quiet, the calm. None of it seems to work. Nothing that used to bring me a little bit of relief from the outside world works anymore. I feel lost Read more
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Could Die Happy
Yesterday felt like the day I could die. I got to the top of Mount Katahdin and I felt done — like there wasn’t anything left for me to complete. I stood there, leaning on the sign that read 5,269 ft high, and for a second I couldn’t stop myself from crying. I don’t know Read more
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I Was Her Little Karma
Growing up my mom used to call me her “little karma.” As a kid I never really understood what she meant—she’d say it in a high-pitched playful sort of way. For a while, I thought it made me special, since I was the only one of the three kids who had a nickname like that. Read more
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Running, Resting, & Feeling Content
It’s time for some life updates—other than being tired and overworked. Life’s actually been pretty good. I’m back into training for a half marathon, which means I’m constantly in a state of hunger, but honestly I’m just happy to know my body can still run. I’m also really excited because it’s about to be my Read more