Tag: feelings

  • I Truly Am a Big Baby After All

    Yuka

    One time when I was a kid, my little sister, my mom, and I were cuddled up in her king-size bed under her really big red blanket, watching some Japanese movie. I barely remember the plot, let alone the name. My mom was wearing her very worn green cardigan that I always envied (I always Read more

  • The Playground That Holds Decades of Me

    Yuka

    Mundy Park—a little ballpark in Mt. Juliet, Tennessee. The park right behind my childhood house. The place I complained about walking just one loop with my family. The place where I first walked my childhood dog. The place I learned to ride a bike. The place with the hill everyone sledded down in winter. The Read more

  • What He Placed in My Hands

    Yuka

    I closed my eyes and he placed two rocks in my hands…two heart-shaped rocks he’d found outside. The little girl in me almost died from joy; the twenty-five-year-old I am now told myself not to feel anything at all. I looked back up at him and smiled, playfully mocking him for being corny. Then he Read more

  • The Stillness Is Screaming

    Yuka

    I’ve been inconsistent. Ever since I got home from my three-week road trip, not a single part of me has wanted to leave my bed. Don’t get me wrong—I’ve definitely left my bed—but I feel like my body could sleep forever. I did so much socializing and driving in those three weeks that the need Read more