Tag: life
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For the Little Girl Who Wanted to Die
I used to do coke in the middle of the night with my ex-boyfriend. I used to steal at every department store I walked into. I used to drink a case of beer alone every night. I used to pop pain pills for fun. I used to sleep with a different guy every night. I Read more
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Do You Think You Are Capable Of Love?
Umm, I’m not too sure, to be honest, but if there is something I would not like to admit, it is the fact that I don’t think I ever truly felt love for my dog, Daisy, until these past two years—not fully anyway. I know I was her mother, and I did everything I was Read more
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What Made You Think I Deserved It?
Sometimes I still wonder what I did to deserve being estranged from my family. I truly wish my mom, brother, and especially my little sister could write down all the reasons why I was never allowed back into the family. Masochistic, isn’t it? Me wanting them to tell me exactly what was wrong with me Read more
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I Truly Am a Big Baby After All
One time when I was a kid, my little sister, my mom, and I were cuddled up in her king-size bed under her really big red blanket, watching some Japanese movie. I barely remember the plot, let alone the name. My mom was wearing her very worn green cardigan that I always envied (I always Read more
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I Keep Saying It’ll End—It Doesn’t
I’m struggling, but I don’t want to admit it, so I won’t. I’ll keep pushing day after day like nothing is wrong. I’ll tell you my problems and then make some lighthearted joke about how it’s “just for now.” But it’s been “just for now” for the last ten years. When does it end? I Read more
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The Art of Overfilling a Day
It is officially a new month—April—so we are almost a quarter of the way into the year, and why does it feel like it’s flown by? Man, sometimes time really does just slip away. I have no idea what really happened in March other than that I existed and probably ran a bunch. Honestly, with Read more