Tag: life
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What Made You Think I Deserved It?
Sometimes I still wonder what I did to deserve being estranged from my family. I truly wish my mom, brother, and especially my little sister could write down all the reasons why I was never allowed back into the family. Masochistic, isn’t it? Me wanting them to tell me exactly what was wrong with me Read more
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I Truly Am a Big Baby After All
One time when I was a kid, my little sister, my mom, and I were cuddled up in her king-size bed under her really big red blanket, watching some Japanese movie. I barely remember the plot, let alone the name. My mom was wearing her very worn green cardigan that I always envied (I always Read more
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I Keep Saying It’ll End—It Doesn’t
I’m struggling, but I don’t want to admit it, so I won’t. I’ll keep pushing day after day like nothing is wrong. I’ll tell you my problems and then make some lighthearted joke about how it’s “just for now.” But it’s been “just for now” for the last ten years. When does it end? I Read more
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The Art of Overfilling a Day
It is officially a new month—April—so we are almost a quarter of the way into the year, and why does it feel like it’s flown by? Man, sometimes time really does just slip away. I have no idea what really happened in March other than that I existed and probably ran a bunch. Honestly, with Read more
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Marathon Training, Men, and Mild Delusion
This past week was my spring break, and it definitely went by way too fast…I already miss sleeping. I honestly didn’t get much done except learn how to sew and make so many, many bookmarks. I’m also still in training for my marathon, and while I think winter training for a spring marathon is the Read more
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Trying to Pay Attention (But Failing)
It’s 8 a.m., and I’m sitting in a stats class trying my best not to pay attention. For some reason, when I know an exam is happening the same week that we have lecture, my brain automatically believes that everything said in lecture is null—not necessary for my brain to consume any new information. I Read more