Tag: pain
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Joy Runs Don’t Last Forever
Today I was at the gym, and I had the sudden urge to just start bawling. Maybe I should start with the fact that I decided to do my 6.5-mile long run before hitting legs at the gym. That was the worst mistake of my life—but I’ll probably do it again at some point, convincing myself it Read more
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I Helped Him Hurt Her
Earlier this year, I took part in an affair. I got involved with a boy that I knew had a long-distance girlfriend. I didn’t know her…I had never met her. That made it easy for me to think she wasn’t a real person, and I used that to cope with what I was doing. I Read more
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Holding His Thumb
I woke up holding his thumb. My back was turned to him, and that tiny grip was the only point of contact between us. God, I used to think there was no one on this Earth that I could ever comfortably sleep next to unless we slept on opposing sides of the bed, but here Read more
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Not Great at Running (But Great at Running Away)
I’m not sure what to write about today, but I’m sure my train of thought will take over soon. I’m five weeks into my half marathon training, and honestly, I don’t know who I thought I was when I signed up for this race. This shit is hard…harder than I expected. I’ve run one before, Read more
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You Deserved to Bleed Too
It’s 11:15 p.m.—my version of a late night. I can’t sleep, so here I am, sitting in bed, hoping I can write out all my feelings until my brain shuts off and I can rest. I don’t think I’ll ever stop missing my hometown. I miss Tennessee every damn day. I never thought I could Read more
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I’m Tired of Watching People Die
I watch people die for a living. Very rarely do the people I work for get better. Almost every single client I’ve worked with is dead. Tonight is no different. I’m watching every family member walk by and cry. I’m watching life drain from everyone’s face. I watch them weep as they walk away. There’s Read more