Tag: past

  • What Made You Think I Deserved It?

    Yuka

    Sometimes I still wonder what I did to deserve being estranged from my family. I truly wish my mom, brother, and especially my little sister could write down all the reasons why I was never allowed back into the family. Masochistic, isn’t it? Me wanting them to tell me exactly what was wrong with me Read more

  • The Chairs Are Still There

    Yuka

    I want to write something sad. I miss being sad, or at least my writing having more depth—like I’m learning something about myself through all the thinking. But my life has been so calm lately that I feel uninspired because I don’t feel much. My weeks are monotonous and boring, and while that’s okay and Read more

  • Just Want to Be a Good Friend

    Yuka

    Sometimes I forget how good my friends are—especially the ones that just let me be me. Free of judgment, and instead of trying to change me, they take the time to understand the way I am. I feel like I always take them for granted until my life goes to shit. Lately I’ve been leaning Read more

  • I Grew Up Screaming for Silence to End

    Yuka

    I grew up getting the silent treatment from my father, and I hate to admit it, but I’ve done it too. I used to go silent whenever I felt any sort of emotional turmoil. Spoiler alert: it never made me feel any better—just left me filled with pent-up resentment. To this day, I struggle to Read more

  • A Table for One & A Wish for Two

    Yuka

    I took myself to Maggiano’s Little Italy on my solo birthday trip in Boston. It was my dinner on the last day. I walked in and asked for a table for one. The hostess sat me at a large red booth all to myself. I did a little boot scoot and boogie to sit in Read more