Tag: sad
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The Chairs Are Still There
I want to write something sad. I miss being sad, or at least my writing having more depth—like I’m learning something about myself through all the thinking. But my life has been so calm lately that I feel uninspired because I don’t feel much. My weeks are monotonous and boring, and while that’s okay and Read more
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I Thought I’d Be Sad Forever
Someone once told me that some people are simply born sad creatures, as if it’s in their nature to always feel blue. She was talking about her kids—how one of them seemed born happy, while the other was never shy of sadness. I like to believe that what she said isn’t true. For a long Read more
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When You’re No Longer Her Baby
I’ve started to stop thinking about my mom. After a long day yesterday, I realized I had spent the whole day without thinking about her—something that has practically never happened before. What happens if one day comes and I never think about her again? What if I die, and she’s the last thing on my Read more
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50 Things I Wish I Could Tell My Mom For Her 50th Birthday
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How to Start Over, Again and Again
8/20/2024: What if I told you I wasn’t doing well? What if I told you that I’ve thrown up 4 times this week? What if I told you that I don’t see myself getting better? What if I told you that I’m terrified for my well-being? I sat on my patio tonight smoking a cigarette Read more
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Showerheads, Sweatshirts, & Goodbye to Grandpa
My grandpa died two days ago. I felt my phone vibrating and saw my mom’s name pop up…she hasn’t called me in 8 years. A couple of rings went by while I thought of every single possible thing she could be calling me about. Finally, I answered the phone: Me: “hello?” Mom: “hi, how are Read more