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  • Drowning Above Water

    I can’t sleep. I don’t want to eat. I’m tired. I can’t feel anything. A cigarette, a drink, a late-night McDonald’s binge—the mountains, the stars, the quiet, the calm. None of it seems to work. Nothing that used to bring me a little bit of relief from the outside world works anymore. I feel lost…

  • How Far Can You Run From Yourself?

    “What are you running from?” The world.So far from the world that I possibly can.Run so fast the world can’t keep up.Run so far from every decision I’ve ever made that they cease to exist.Run until I can’t feel the wind anymore.Run until I float, & feet no longer touch the ground. Life feels easier…

  • Holding His Thumb

    I woke up holding his thumb. My back was turned to him, and that tiny grip was the only point of contact between us. God, I used to think there was no one on this Earth that I could ever comfortably sleep next to unless we slept on opposing sides of the bed, but here…

  • The Patience I Don’t Have

    I don’t get how parents do it. I don’t get how you can just let things go when your kid fucks up royally. I don’t get how you have to sit here after a huge argument and love them anyways. I don’t get how to talk to them without putting my feelings above theirs. They…

  • Could Die Happy

    Yesterday felt like the day I could die. I got to the top of Mount Katahdin and I felt done — like there wasn’t anything left for me to complete. I stood there, leaning on the sign that read 5,269 ft high, and for a second I couldn’t stop myself from crying. I don’t know…

  • Balcony Breakfasts & Boat Boy

    Twice in the last month, I’ve spent entire days doing absolutely nothing—except being wrapped up in a bed, couch, or dining room table with a man. My phone ceases to exist, school gets tossed out the window, and for a day I get to be blissfully ignorant of all the things I should be doing. Instead, I’m…