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  • Heart on Fire, Soul at Sea

    There once was a boy in my life who made me feel like I was on fire. It felt like he ignited me from the moment I met him. I’d never felt that way in my life—every feeling I had with him felt so new, like magic sitting right in front of me. There was…

  • Finding My Heart Again

    I had a great day today. God…today was the epitome of great. I ran 13.1 miles at a pace far faster than I expected. This past week had been the biggest mental struggle of my life… my brain just wouldn’t stop, and I completely stopped believing in myself and who I was. I got lost…

  • Who are you?

    A couple of years ago, I went on a date where the man asked me, Who are you? I was twenty-three at the time, and he was a decade older. I didn’t know exactly what he was asking, so I said, “I’m Yuka Kawata, twenty-three years old, college graduate, and future doctor.” He smiled and said, Okay, but…

  • Three Months of Waiting

    I’ve officially decided to wait. I was in the shower earlier today when it crossed my mind that it would be unfair for me to see other people while I have feelings for someone else. As much as I like to think keeping my options open would be better, it wouldn’t be smart. I don’t…

  • Do you believe in God?

    I don’t know, but yes. I watched someone very close to me die…I mean, I watched him take his last breath. That was the day I started to believe in God, again. I hated the idea that I had no idea where he went or whether he was safe. The idea of it terrified me.…

  • What He Placed in My Hands

    I closed my eyes and he placed two rocks in my hands…two heart-shaped rocks he’d found outside. The little girl in me almost died from joy; the twenty-five-year-old I am now told myself not to feel anything at all. I looked back up at him and smiled, playfully mocking him for being corny. Then he…