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  • Three Months of Waiting

    I’ve officially decided to wait. I was in the shower earlier today when it crossed my mind that it would be unfair for me to see other people while I have feelings for someone else. As much as I like to think keeping my options open would be better, it wouldn’t be smart. I don’t…

  • Do you believe in God?

    I don’t know, but yes. I watched someone very close to me die…I mean, I watched him take his last breath. That was the day I started to believe in God, again. I hated the idea that I had no idea where he went or whether he was safe. The idea of it terrified me.…

  • What He Placed in My Hands

    I closed my eyes and he placed two rocks in my hands…two heart-shaped rocks he’d found outside. The little girl in me almost died from joy; the twenty-five-year-old I am now told myself not to feel anything at all. I looked back up at him and smiled, playfully mocking him for being corny. Then he…

  • Drowning Above Water

    I can’t sleep. I don’t want to eat. I’m tired. I can’t feel anything. A cigarette, a drink, a late-night McDonald’s binge—the mountains, the stars, the quiet, the calm. None of it seems to work. Nothing that used to bring me a little bit of relief from the outside world works anymore. I feel lost…

  • How Far Can You Run From Yourself?

    “What are you running from?” The world.So far from the world that I possibly can.Run so fast the world can’t keep up.Run so far from every decision I’ve ever made that they cease to exist.Run until I can’t feel the wind anymore.Run until I float, & feet no longer touch the ground. Life feels easier…

  • Holding His Thumb

    I woke up holding his thumb. My back was turned to him, and that tiny grip was the only point of contact between us. God, I used to think there was no one on this Earth that I could ever comfortably sleep next to unless we slept on opposing sides of the bed, but here…