Tag: alone

  • I Wonder What It’s Like to Like People

    Yuka

    Last night I took myself to a Mexican restaurant with a new book and no plan other than to eat my body weight in chips and salsa. I just couldn’t stop thinking about chicken, cheese, and rice for the past few days, so I let myself indulge. And I have no regrets. I even ordered Read more

  • A Lizard and Its Heat Lamp

    Yuka

    I’ve been working nights since I was 18 years old. It’s been 8 years of consistently working night shifts, either with the elderly or in a hospital. My current client tells me every time I walk in how grateful she is to have me there and how much she hates being alone at night. In Read more

  • I Refuse to Be Half-Known

    Yuka

    I’ll say it once and only once: I wish so badly I wasn’t single. I’ve been single for almost four years now, and for the most part, I really do wish I were in a relationship. I wish I had someone to come home to, or someone rooting for me. I feel like I could have been Read more

  • The Tree, the Lights, and the Tears

    Yuka

    After almost a decade of spending the holidays without family, I can finally say with certainty that it does get easier…not just easier, but actually enjoyable. This is the first Thanksgiving I’ve spent alone and didn’t feel sad. I even drank, and it didn’t turn me into a downer…which I thought was odd. I did Read more

  • The Season I Slow Down

    Yuka

    Hey journal, it’s been a while since I’ve written in you, and honestly I don’t have anything revolutionary to say. But what I can tell you is this: the days are short, and it gets dark faster than I can blink. It’s cold…already very cold…and I’ve started wearing thermals on my walks. I promised myself at the Read more