Tag: life
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Drowning Above Water
I can’t sleep. I don’t want to eat. I’m tired. I can’t feel anything. A cigarette, a drink, a late-night McDonald’s binge—the mountains, the stars, the quiet, the calm. None of it seems to work. Nothing that used to bring me a little bit of relief from the outside world works anymore. I feel lost Read more
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The View That Held Me Still
Today I sat looking at a beautiful view. The bench was above a garden full of wildflowers, and off in the distance you could see the ocean, and even further you could see a hill with a farmhouse on the top. The view was almost perfect…just missing my dog running around with a couple of Read more
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Running, Resting, & Feeling Content
It’s time for some life updates—other than being tired and overworked. Life’s actually been pretty good. I’m back into training for a half marathon, which means I’m constantly in a state of hunger, but honestly I’m just happy to know my body can still run. I’m also really excited because it’s about to be my Read more
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The First Time I Let Him See Me
He saw me naked, but this time with my clothes on.It was two in the morning. We were both half-drunk and lying on opposing couches. We stared at the ceiling until one of us was sober enough to start a conversation. I was far drunker than he ever expected me to be, and he asked Read more
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The Stillness Is Screaming
I’ve been inconsistent. Ever since I got home from my three-week road trip, not a single part of me has wanted to leave my bed. Don’t get me wrong—I’ve definitely left my bed—but I feel like my body could sleep forever. I did so much socializing and driving in those three weeks that the need Read more
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Beautiful & Unbearable
I don’t know how to describe the feeling of crossing the state line back into Maine after being gone for three weeks. It was like my stomach dropped into a pit, and every part of me was begging to turn around. I find it so irritating how strongly I dislike this state. I hate this Read more